Monday 28 April 2014


I'd rather let myself hurt than others hurt...
That's the one thing that i've been doing ever since...
Tears rolling down my cheeks are something normal...
Especially when i have to make sacrifices for others...

What is love?
For me it means pain and hardship before all the beautiful things to fall in place..
Yes i've been hurt... For a gazillion times..
But i'm still searching.. For the one that can give me what i would call true love..

As for now, i have to wake up and realise, the only true love i could get is from HIM. Allah the Almighty.
Regardless of the countless time that i forgot about Him.. That i've put other things before Him.
He is still there waiting for me..
Reaching out to me..

Oh Allah..thank you for never giving up on me eventhough i've gone astray many times..
Thank you for being there for me when i needed someone to hear me out..
When i needed a shoulder to cry on..
When i needed someone to lend his ears..
When i needed a hand to hold me..

Guide me.. Guide me and don't leave me astray..
I'll always need your love forever..more than anything.. Cause that's what important for me right now..
Oh Allah..please give me strength to overcome this hurdle.. To pass this hurricane and typhoon.. To pass this hardship and pain..

Sunday 2 February 2014

23… its just a number lah!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

Alhamdulillah.. I am 23 years and 4 days old
Thank you so much to all that have been praying for my good health…
Alhamdulillah than I am still alive.. Alhamdulillah ya Allah I still have the chance to repent to you..
and yess.. thank you Allah for all the wonderful live u have given me.. for all those ups and downs.. there are always a reason to the things that happened in my life. I'm feeling so blessed with the family that He has given me, for the friends that has been there for me.. for the challenging life so that I get much stronger and much wiser..

yes, age is just a number coz maturity comes with responsibility.. so I can be very immature on the inside but very mature on the outside. LOL.. basically I can be whatever I choose to be. So alia, PLEASE choose it right!

Thank you to :

1. my parents for the very special birthday present---->ring
2. my MR Secret admirer (not anymore) ----> swarovski element table figurine (i love it so much!!)
3. Kak Lin----> the most beautiful frame and the cutest nici sheep toy =) it is so cute ok!
4. Alice Sim -----> star necklace (coz I'm a star right? LOL)
5. my darling Lee Pei Chin and her mom -----> Mademoiselle Ricci by Nina Ricci body lotion
6. Brothers ---> birthday card!
7. others for more presents to come =P

I love u all with all my heart <3 <3 <3

Tuesday 21 January 2014

an eye opener

assalamualaikum w.b.t…

today's entry is short and fruitful.. I've just come across my friend's blog and I found an entry from her blog that is so important and such an eye opener for all of us muslims. insyaAllah…

this is the link to her blog. hope all of us will benefit from it. insyaAllah..---> damalee

Tuesday 14 January 2014


Hi guys,

I know I haven't been updating for ages. It is simply because I have LOTS of things to do. Now I have started my internship at DRB Hicom, so driving to Shah Alam from Ampang was a living hell. I had to leave the house around 6.30am and I'll arrive there at 7.20am. Nah, I don't feel like nagging bout work atm. will tell that later.


Sunday 22 September 2013


I wish I could just reset my time management..but every time i want to do that, it seems like i'm too occupied with lots of other things until i don't dare to reset it.. I feel like i've forgotten everything about time management. Or its just pure laziness...procrastination..i wish i could be a better person.. I wish i could be more responsible.. Yesterday, some random Chinese uncle came to me and ask what am I studying. I told him i'm doing accounting and taxation. He was like wow! Then he grab my arm and said "don't let your parents down ok." Suddenly i feel like.. Omg, i haven't been responsibleenough with   my life.. I don't  know.but that's what i think.. What ire ally feel is that Allah sort of like sent a message to me through that uncle.. To study well and not let my parents down.. I miss my parents...